Tagged self

In god we trust

A part of my feel like I have lost touch with this world.  Another part of me feels like the whole world is living in me. I am not saying that I have given up, for that I have breathe I will keep living. I am saying I have given up on the human race, the ones that I have already met. This world is small, the people living in are not. I have talk a lot about mental health, I have talked a lot about my own battles with cancer, addiction, and other things that made me really vunerable.…

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Where did you go ?

Lost love.I went to the lost and found the other day looking for you. They said they never heard of you. They asked me if I could describe you.I drew blank. They asked me when was it that I last saw you.I drew blank.I left looking for you. Found that I was creating hate in…

Narcissism, Self-centered, Fraud, Fake.

Label me. I don’t really care anymore. Speak opened minded, self-reflect on your own self. No one can save somebody that doesn’t want to save themselves. Dear people, I don’t know who this will reach, I hope it reaches somebody that needs it the most.  We are all going through something in Life. I want to first thank the people who believed me in and I let them down. Deep down somewhere in my heart lays a compassionate soul. There are many different layers under the surface of my being. I am grateful enough to be where I am now.…

Comparison Is the Thief

I don’t really know where this is going. I just turned 28 years old a couple of weeks ago. I feel like I am 90 years old. The more I say this the more I feel so confused. Life is confusing. Maybe I am just confused. I know somewhere deep within lays happiness. Happiness isn’t there anymore. Confused about where I want to take my story. Maybe I feel guilty for not loving myself after cancer, Maybe I feel regret for not helping others with sharing the best side of me. Maybe I just reached my breaking point, maybe its…

Truth Hurts.

Everyone wants you to be happy. Once you know something, it’s forever. Can’t take back the words and can’t just forget the truth. The truth hurts- that’s why no one likes to hear it. Life sometimes can be funny. We have people all over the world trying to figure it out. Some get distracted by the superficial meanings in life, while others feel it so much that they just get lost in their own misery. I failed in being myself and failed even more so at trying to be someone I am not. When you try and become something you’re…

Same start different finish

Everyday we wake up. That within itself is the greatest blessing in the world. We think we are going to live on forever. I have been waiting for my moment to shine and kept getting blocked by my own style of thinking. Life is worth living; this is the one chance we have at living it. I sometimes drift away from what I really stand for. After all, I am human. I have some anger inside me still; I’ve learned how to control to a certain degree. Life is with living. I sometimes get mad at myself, limiting who I…

Double sided conversation.

Knock knock! Who’s there ? Me. Me, who? It’s me, you. The person that has been with you for the last 27 years of your life. Can you let me in? No. What do you mean no? I said NO!! Why do you always do this? Do what? This. Can you just leave me alone? No, I can’t leave you alone. I let you be for a little while and now it’s time to man up and get your shit together. What do you mean by get my shit together? I have it together. You do? Yes. Can you explain…

Stay woke

How I survived Cancer. One way of how I survived cancer was letting go of all my old ways. In trying to let go of all my old ways, I got a bit tangled up. My ego is a fighter. My spirit is a child that fears. I am a Libra which represents balance, yet I had no balance. Ever since I was a kid, I used my imagination. During Cancer, I was never worried about the chemo itself; I was more worried about my fantasy madden team. The child in me wasn’t pure. I grow up become him. He…

Don’t Be depressed in a opressed world.

Everything in life dies. This moment will soon wash out and new memories of what life should be will live on. Don’t allow the demons that live in your head be there rent-free, the only free thing on this planet is happiness but we put labels on that by trying to follow other people in their own pursuit of happiness. Happiness cannot be bought or replicated. Kindly let me help you or you will drown- I never looked for help in my recovery. People always assumed they knew answers to the problems that I was facing, but the problem was that…

Mind OVER Body

Pain comes from suffering. Ask yourself this question: how many times are you going to repeat yesterday’s mistakes and dwell on tomorrow’s comings because of today’s pain? Now, I am not a rocket scientist but I do know that this pain comes from a place of deep emotions that haven’t been forgotten or better yet,…