Tagged survivorship

You’re still here

Today I was thinking to myself, what is the point of doing anything if I am going to die one day. I then quickly told myself I am not dead yet. Won’t be dead for a while. I am here now and now is all I have. After almost dying I was waiting to die…

Narcissism, Self-centered, Fraud, Fake.

Label me. I don’t really care anymore. Speak opened minded, self-reflect on your own self. No one can save somebody that doesn’t want to save themselves. Dear people, I don’t know who this will reach, I hope it reaches somebody that needs it the most.  We are all going through something in Life. I want to first thank the people who believed me in and I let them down. Deep down somewhere in my heart lays a compassionate soul. There are many different layers under the surface of my being. I am grateful enough to be where I am now.…

Double sided conversation.

Knock knock! Who’s there ? Me. Me, who? It’s me, you. The person that has been with you for the last 27 years of your life. Can you let me in? No. What do you mean no? I said NO!! Why do you always do this? Do what? This. Can you just leave me alone? No, I can’t leave you alone. I let you be for a little while and now it’s time to man up and get your shit together. What do you mean by get my shit together? I have it together. You do? Yes. Can you explain…

don’t count the days, make the days count

Manifest what you want out to the world. A couple of years back I purposed to my fiancé. Impulsive but rational impulsive decision, here the thing I just got my clean bill of health and with that, I knew that death was near and that what I once lived for was now all put behind. Every year I would make a false promise or fake new years resolutions. Whether it was quitting smoking or losing weight. I would always fail because after Jan 1st my hope for change was gone because life started to become normal. One year, losing weight…

WALKING AWAY TO FIND HAPPINESS

WHAT IS FAILURE ? What defines failure? You can look at it as being one of two things: failure or a come-up to your success. A month and a half ago, I was in the midst of finally starting to get my life back together. For the first time in a really long time, I…

A LETTER TO AN OLD FRIEND..

Why did you think that you could just come and did what you did? Who the fuck do you think you are? Let ME tell you something.. you made me heartless. You made me turn into this monster that no one wants to be around.

Define Failure ?

What’s left to life when everything is lost? “Everything”, one might answer.. The one that answers that is a person that is content with him/herself. See, knowing that we die, we then know nothing on this world is forever, not even the planet itself. So why get so caught up on the idea that you…

A letter to myself pre-cancer !

Dear Cancer Mouhamad, Listen, your life is going to change… You will not only change to become a person that will tackle and take down anything that tries to tell you differently but you won’t really love all the things that you thought once defined you. You are going to become this beautiful person, that…

Now you see me Now you Don’t !

What is an illusion? According to Webster’s dictionary, it is “a thing that is or is likely to be wrongly perceived or interpreted by the senses”. So, what is a memory? Ask this question to yourself: can a memory be the same for any two people? Can the feeling of the memory be the same…

To much past !

I always fought myself about the unknown, it was always scary, imagine going to a place that is dark and loud, then trying to give yourself a direction to find a exit. That’s how my life was for three years. I kept trying to fight the unknown.  The unknown can always be known. For example […]

What is killing us !

Pain comes from suffering. Ask yourself this question: how many times are you going to repeat yesterday’s mistakes and dwell on tomorrow’s comings because of today’s pain? Now, I am not a rocket scientist but I do know that this pain comes from a place of deep emotions that haven’t been forgotten or better yet, even understood. Why fall victim to a thought? Isn’t a thought something that you can control as a person? Today, I saw the world for what it was; a planet. Nothing more, nothing less. I wasn’t expecting anything but good to come out of today…